Switches

Switches. Every house has them - light switches on walls, switches on every appliance, even switches in our showers and tubs, and every house has a breaker box full of switches that trump every other switch in the house. 

Do you know how a switch works? Simply put in 5^th grade science lesson fashion, a switch completes a circuit. When the switch is “off,” then the circuit is open, preventing the flow of power from getting where it’s intended to go. When the switch is “on,” the circuit is made complete, allowing power to flow freely.

God’s been speaking to me a lot recently about the concept of switches in our lives. There are certain things that happen throughout our days that quickly flip a switch within us and oftentimes, it’s not pretty when the lights come on! Others have switches with delays – they complete the circuit and turn on the power eventually, but not immediately. Switches are intended to work instantaneously. There shouldn’t be a delay. If there’s a delay, then the switch is faulty and it needs to be fixed or even replaced. Other times, we flip a switch with a specific purpose planned and nothing happens at all. Whether the breaker is flipped or the electricity is out or there’s faulty wiring somewhere within, something is preventing the power from flowing where it should go and many times, WE’RE left feeling powerless when this happens.

One of the things that God has particularly been working on in me is the idea that I’ve permitted others to have control over certain switches in my heart, my mind, my emotions. I’ve given them power to wound or anger me – power they were never intended to have. Sometimes it It’s seemed that I’ve just stood there, as if in a dream, watching as someone flipped a switch, triggering things within me that left me in a horrible emotional state. Then….I woke up…. I realized that when I allowed someone else to flip a switch that triggered negative emotions within me, that I was allowing their power to surge through me, overloading my circuits and causing me to blow a breaker.  

It was as if the lights went on, illuminating my understanding. I realized that I was the only one with the right and authority to flip switches in my OWN house. Anyone else who was trying to do that was trespassing. I decided that I had the right and the authority to either let those individuals in or to keep them out of my house and even out of my yard.

Not only that, I took responsibility for my own actions.  I understood that while I might not be able to determine the actions of others, I could control my own actions and reactions and I needed to make conscious decisions that would determine where I was going to allow the power to flow in my life. In each situation, I need to determine which switches were to be on and which were to be turned off.

Some of us have faulty wiring. Things have happened in our lives that have caused short circuits, blown fuses and power failures. That old wiring isn’t working anymore. This kind of renovation goes deep and it comes with a cost. It’s found behind the walls and can be impossible to replace without doing some tearing down first. We need to be willing to allow the Master Electrician to come in, rip out what’s faulty and replace it with wiring that’s perfect. We need to be willing to pay the price of the pain that may come during the renovation and be willing to deal with things looking torn apart for a while. Then, we need to learn from Him how to operate the new switches and wiring and ultimately take the authority to flip the switches in our house or leave them off.

While learning truths like this often isn’t fun because they come as a result of challenging times, we can be grateful for them because of the renovation that occurs when we allow the process to happen. For me, I’ve needed to learn that I control the switches. I govern my actions and reactions. Those are the areas of MY responsibility. These are the places where I have power that’s found in the form of self-control and conscious decision-making. When others try to come and flip those switches, even those who I can’t change being a part of my life, I have the right to not allow them to flip my switches.  This sometimes means keeping certain people at a distance so they can’t reach those switches or, when it’s possible, keeping those individuals out of my yard entirely if that’s a decision that needs to be made for mental and emotional health.

Ultimately, God is our power source. He’s the One whose power courses through our circuits. He gives us authority to choose when to flip switches or not. We need to know Him as our Power Source and know the switches within us, using those to their greatest capacity, allowing His power to flow fully, illuminating the world with His light as it pours out of the windows of our houses. We get to be the conduits and He gives us the choice of how we’re going to walk in it. 

A Good Foundation

“…and it (the house) did not fall, for it was founded on the rock…” (Matthew 7:24-27)

It’s pretty easy to understand that when a house is built on a questionable foundation, it likely doesn’t have much of a chance for remaining standing for generations. Sometimes it’s the ground that the house is built on that’s faulty, as mentioned in Matthew 7; other times, it’s the poured foundation that’s at fault.

Recently, I watched one of my favorite home renovation shows and the house that was having work done on it had a foundation that was literally crumbling. Even though the land it was built on was solid, the foundation itself was faulty. Before the contractor could go any further, she had to have the house raised and the foundation re-poured. If she had done all of the renovations and restored the home to its former beauty, but neglected the foundation, all of the work she had done would have been for naught and she never would have been issued a certificate of occupancy, let alone been able to sell it.  

There are SO MANY directions this post could go in and there will likely be additional posts on this topic, but we decided that the best place to start would be with the foundation that we chose for our marriage. Admittedly, we share a marriage with its fair share of frustrations, but we really do have an amazing, beautifully imperfect marriage in which we’re truly madly in love with each other and still passionate in our feelings toward each other. My heart still races when I hear Bri’s voice. He wraps his arms around me and I just want to be enveloped even more. I call him “love” and he calls me “beautiful.” The sound of his voice still makes me smile and we’re miserable (and cranky) the first day apart following a vacation together because there’s just no one we’d rather be with than one another.

This didn’t just happen. We chose to make it and keep it this way. Before we got married, we determined that we would live our lives together following three “rules.”

1. Jesus Christ is Lord of our lives and of our marriage. Everything for us has flowed out of this principle. This is the solid Rock upon which we’ve built.
2. Divorce is not an option. Period.
3. When we’re angry about something, we’ve committed to deal with the issue at hand, rather than slandering one another’s character.

THIS is what’s seen us through the hard times and trust me, the hard times have come….and come. Let me explain these three little rules just a little more.

First, both Brian and I entered into relationships with Christ at pivotal times in our lives. Bri was 14 and I was 12. We each understood the sacrifice that God had made on our behalf in sending His Son to take punishment that should have been ours, in exchange for a redemptive love that restored to us a right relationship with our Heavenly Father. We surrendered our lives to Jesus’ Lordship and did our best to follow and honor Him. Honestly? Bri did a better job at that than I did, but that’s a story for another time. 

When I met Bri, I would readily confess that I was a Christian, but I definitely wasn’t living the life of one…until God used Bri to turn my heart fully back to Him and caused me to choose Him above the things I had put in His place. Want to know what I first fell in love with about Bri? The way he would teach me about Jesus….we would talk for HOURS. He would drive me home, we’d steam up the windows PRAYING, then he would walk me to the door, hug me goodnight and tell me he’d talk to me the next day. That was considerably different than the “normal” drop offs I’d had after dates! As we fell in love (Bri says he knew the night we met that he’d just met his wife) and knew in our hearts that God had called us to be married, we knew that having Christ as the center of our lives individually and as a couple was a non-negotiable for us to make it as a married couple. Everything in our life together has been built on this decision.

Second, we determined that no matter what, for us, divorce simply wasn’t an option. This isn’t to say that we’re in any way condemning those who have gotten divorced. We know that we live in a sin-filled, fallen world and there are consequences for our actions that can take any number of forms and sometimes, it’s the innocent who pay the greatest price. (Check out Uriah’s fate in II Samuel 11.) There are times or circumstances when we believe people shouldn’t remain married and our hearts have broken with friends and family who have been through it themselves.

On my side of the family, there’s been a history of divorce. On Brian’s side, there hasn’t been. The fact is that people are torn apart during divorce and we decided for us that we’d push through no matter what we faced. I’ll be honest. We hit a REALLY rough period in our marriage and there came a time when I looked at our pastor’s wife and said, “I have a lot of compassion and understanding for those who opt to divorce because it can seem a whole lot easier to do that than to go through what we’re going through right now.” I remember crying out to God and saying, "Lord, I KNOW I love this man, but...could you please help me feel it again?" All I can say is that when you get to the other side, it’s beautiful. What we have now is so much better than anything we’d had prior to that – even in the best of times. We’ve been refined by fire and we’re better for it, individually and together. Every day we fall more deeply in love with each other. We may not always feel it happening, but we look back and realize that it did. We not only love each other, we have a deep respect and admiration for one another.

Last, but not least, when we argue (because we do) we deal with the issue that’s causing the argument, rather than seek to assassinate the other’s character. I can truthfully say that we’ve never called one another a name, let alone a choice word. I’ve never thought of my husband as a jerk or worse and he’s never thought that of me. Do we do things that drive each other crazy? Yep. But we deal with the issue that’s making us frustrated, rather than allow anger or hurt to cause us to speak things that tear the other apart.

So, these three rules are the foundation upon which we’ve built. It’s saved our marriage and caused it to be what it is today. We’ve made one another better people. I’m who I am because of the ways in which God has worked in my life through my husband and vise versa. We know that this foundation is one that will last for generations and be a legacy that we can confidently pass on to our children.

So, what’s YOUR foundation look like? Where have you built it? What condition is it in? Do you need to lift up your house and fix the foundation before you do any other renovating? If needed, take the time to fix your foundation – at least double check it – before you go any further…

An Invitation to Renovation

Sometimes when I think about myself, it’s with the eye of a flea market buyer. I see myself as one that has “good bones,” is “solid” and has potential. Like a good flea market find, I’ve  just needed to be stripped down, taken apart, reinforced in certain areas, put back together, recovered, polished…even made into something entirely new. It wasn’t enough to just be spit shined, cleaned up, and put back out on display because I wouldn’t have held together in the long run. There were too many cracks, imperfections, weak lines that would cause me to eventually fall apart (which has happened on countless occasions).

Like a grand, old house that had been designed with greatness in mind, then was used over and over by any number of inhabitants and even abandoned and left to fall into disrepair, I’ve become something much different than my Builder’s original design. Over the years, I made my own changes to the Architect’s original blueprint for my life – sometimes unwittingly; sometimes selfishly, purposefully…rebelliously. I’ve chosen not listen to the input of the Designer and I’ve allowed subpar craftsmen to come in and have their way with their own ideas and designs in my life, leaving their mark in ways that devalued me. I allowed it because I didn’t see the value in myself and I just wanted SOMEONE to see some kind of “beauty” in me….to desire me in some kind of way…. So, what once was solid, good craftsmanship that followed a grand plan, became cheapened, easily broken, scarred.

Once I recognized what condition I was in, I came to a decision. I knew I needed to allow the Master Craftsman to renovate – refurbish, repair, restore, mend, fix and revamp my life. I needed to be torn down to the original studs. Walls (lots of them) have needed to be torn down; opening me up, often creating new purposes for old spaces. It’s been painful, hard work, but just as the sheen of original wood is coaxed back to the surface of an object and beauty emerges, so has the process been in my life and continues to be because each day, the renovation process continues. Being honest….frustration has often mounted as I’ve been unable to see the end result and haven’t been able to envision the way things will look like one day. Yet…I have unshakeable trust in my Designer, Master Builder and General Contractor, so I allow them to have their way, even on the days when I just don’t understand what they’re doing.

This concept of a renovated life has been one that Bri and I have talked about and connected to our own lives for years, mainly because of all of the revelations that God has given to Bri through the very practical realm of his work. As a contractor, Bri has a depth of understanding in the area of construction that goes way beyond natural connections and experience. It’s a vehicle through which God has continued to show Bri practical applications of how He works in our lives, likening it to building or renovating a house. Hashing through these ideas in our conversations together has given us a better understanding of His work in our lives. At times, we’ve both fought against the process and at other times, we’ve welcomed it and even longed for more of it, trying to rush work that simply can’t be rushed. Each day we learn, most often from the mistakes that we make, and God graciously grants us a bit more wisdom from each failure.

We don’t have it all figured out – not even close to it, but we’ve discovered that being able to go through it with one another has given us the courage to allow the renovation process to continue. We’re no longer afraid to ask questions, to want explanations and to dig in to gain understanding, growing in the process. What we want to do with this blog is invite you to take part in the conversation and the process of renovation in your own life. When an entire community is restored, it’s revitalized and changes the course of generations to come. Will you join us? Let the renovating begin!