In my human frailty, I recognize my complete and utter need
of Him.
Clinging, leaning into…these are postures I should have
before Him every day – not just when I feel the need of Him. Yet, I am independent,
sure of myself, confident – all beautiful qualities He created in me…yet each
are trappings that can draw me away if I allow it.
In this moment, however, I find myself broken…at the end of
myself, unable to change things of my own accord, completely at a loss…I’ve
been here so often, fought hard for so long and I’m tired. I’m tired of
fighting the same fight, finding myself in the same place time after time after
time…revisiting that which I never want to return to, but seemingly unable to
escape, held captive…
Then truth sinks in and I remember that I am no longer a
slave – to fear, to poverty, to sickness, to lack in any way and I remember that
He is perfect in all of His ways and in the midst of very real struggle, I can
trust. I can trust because He IS a good Father. I understand His fierce love
for me because I know the measure of my love for my own children. Because of
that, I can better grasp the depth of love He has for me.
In the midst of all that I cannot comprehend, I CAN hold
fast to knowing that because of His deep love for me, He has a plan that is
GOOD, not “evil.” I can stand, even when I feel that all is crumbling around
me, because I know that the truths that are deep in my heart are founded on
that which is solid rock.
And…I can PRAISE HIM because He sees the end from the
beginning…and His ways are higher than mine…and HE LOVES ME…
With that knowledge, I can stand. I can wait. I can hold
fast – even when the winds and storms rage. I can rest and have peace within,
even when nothing makes sense and I just don’t understand.
I’m no longer a slave to fear or to anything else and with
that knowledge, I will NOT be shaken because He IS a good Father and I AM loved
by Him.
“No Longer Slaves” (Bethel Music)
“Good Good Father” (Housefires II)
Matthew 7:24-27
Jeremiah 29:11
